Multiple things can be true at the same time

I really appreciate you grappling with this in public! My personal experience these last few months has been very similar to what you describe: an eerie combination of doubt and dread about the environmental and societal effects perpetuated by an obscene concentration of power and wealth, alongside a real sense of delight in the possibilities opened up by a meaningful leap in what the tech can do.

Add in an already polarized media environment with a lot of people yelling (understandable!), many not reading beyond headlines (regrettable), and everything moving so fast - you really do end up with a kind of perpetual headache.

Talking about it more, engaging with the nuance of it, wading through the murk in community: I think that's the only way through.